"Dance as if no one is watching. Love as if you have never been hurt. Sing as if no one can hear. Live as though heaven is on earth."
Firstly, about my New Year...
Well I ended up going to a night club with some of my friends and becoming one of those drunk people that I was talking about! It only took a couple of glasses of wine though!!! I actually had a great time and it was nice to go out with everyone before I leave to live in Cambridge in 4 weeks time. Even though I 'fell off the wagon' I always work on the basis that everything I do is exactly what is needed at that time. I trust in the Universe and my angels to guide me to things that happen for a reason and provide me with balance. It's not always clear what the reason is straight away, but it is always revealed along the line somewhere. I can think of numerous things that are in my life today that wouldn't be if things hadn't happened 'just so', things that even seemed painful at the time. I think you may be able to relate? :-)
During the day on the 31st I did make it to Vita Organic but I forgot my camera so no food shots this time! Lel bought me lunch but they weren't doing any raw there as it was going to be so busy, being NYE and all. So we had a selection from the buffet which is all cooked, but cooked under 100 degrees to maintain the good nutritional goodies. When I was told there was no raw that day I have to say I was a little bit disappointed but it took over 2 hours to get into London and I wasn't about to get there and not eat. It was a reminder about the freedom this way of eating has given me. I have got the freedom to eat exactly what I want and that included a cooked meal on that particular day, because of the situation I was in...and I really enjoyed it, guilt free!
After the meal we hopped on the Underground (the strike wasn't as disruptive as they had made out in the media!) to China Town and to my delight, picked up 8 coconuts! I can finally make some of those recipes that need coco meat!
The effects of a 'heavy' night
I didn't surface from my bed until after 1pm on New Years Day and it really reminded me of those wasted hang-over days that I used to get when I would go out clubbing - yeeeeuuch! That's the part I find most troubling now, the waste of a day or in this case, a morning. Salvaged the rest of the day with making some flax crackers and some quality salad to cleanse myself of the previous nights indulgences. Also had a really good house clean with Lel and got rid of the Christmas tree which was 'pooping' needles all over the floor. I think i'm going to be finding pine needles everywhere for weeks. There was a reason that tree was so cheap! There's alot to be said for the more expensive 'minimal drop' trees, that's what i'll have next year.
Deeper effects...
For the next few nights I noticed feeling very uneasy in my house - I felt like I was being watched. I was downstairs late one evening, on my own , having a satsuma before bed time. I was standing next to the big glass doors that lead out to the long and dark garden and I felt a wave of fear engulf me. I just imagined someone in the garden watching me, waiting and ready to run at the doors and scare the life out of me. It took all of my powers of reason not to get out of there! I usually leave my bedroom window open at night to let the air in but found myself closing it just in case someone got in...I really sound mentally unhinged don't I?
I had very broken sleep and even had a nightmare that woke me up in a panic at 4:30am because I thought I was in a computer game, fighting for my life! From the very little I can remember, I was fighting it out with 10 different characters who all had their own way of killing you. I managed to beat the huge, Predator-type monster (do I sound like i'm 5 years old?) that had a gun and had trouble battling with the one who, if you looked in her eyes, it meant you had to kill her! :-(
I'm ok now though - back to chasing off burglars and wrestling alligators with my bare hands, just to make myself feel more masculine again!
Needless to say I won't be over-doing it for a while, it's good to have these little reminders of why we don't do certain things anymore though, don't you think?
Sleep well :-)
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